Dealing with the everyday "abnormality" under the skin and the plans of medication or being non-medicated has allowed me to have a better understanding of those who have and deal with a disease. Wow, and this is just all the surface stuff I think about all the time. There's the burden of doctor appointments, medical bills, time consuming tests and research. Then there's research of a healthy diet that prevents certain "flare up" symptoms. The thing I find more of an annoyance is that unknowingly you may find yourself not being able to do anything one day. You feel like a cloud is covering you and you're overwhelmed with fatigue and weakness. Your immunity feels low and you're just feeling nauseated and lose an appetite to eat.
If you've known me before my symptoms became more prominent you'll know that I'm not no ordinary woman. I actually like moving furniture and lifting heavy things. I like sports and playing them. I always felt physically able to do everything and anything! I'm also a multi tasked person (which is probably not the wisest thing to do). If there was one to be on the phone, carry all the grocery bags up a flight of stairs and cook on the stove at the same time...that would be me.
So when my doctor told me to "take it easy" it was sad news for me. Slowing down was just never on my agenda. And to know that I may experience immobility with this disease in a few years or more struck me!
God surely has his plan for me. That brings to mind my favorite verse when I first had doubts about this diagnosis from my family practitioner. And wanted to be normal again.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18, " So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal."
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